Through life I guess I just got so used to people leaving. That I never realized i was becoming one myself.
I moved from Denmark as a child, moved from Oslo as a young teenager, Moved from England as a teenager, and the same from Valdres.
All of the times I left, I also left someone behind.
Thanks to 7 different technologies is has made it easier to keep in touch with alot of the individuals, see what they are up too and how they live their lives, but when a certain someone said to me "It is strange to think about, that I might never see you again in my life." It really pushed a button, and not in a good way.
I have become the person that can leave without it being a too big an issue. I mean, it always hurts, but not in the way it maybe should be.
I am thinking about all of the people I have left in my life and now about how I might never see them again or all the people I have lost on the way. People I can remember but not the names of or the people that might have just gone blank in my mind.
The first time leaving was the hardest thing I ever had to do, saying goodbye to a life where you were safe and where everything around you was known, moving into the Unknown.
I guess your skin toughens up and nothing gets to you anymore.
I dont want to be that person that leaves and never looks behind.
I wish I could have made more out of the last moments than what I have. Some were just sitting next to me, some I didn't even say goodbye to. Some I guess I just didn't even think of saying goodbye to.
Since then People have moved one, maybe even forgotten me, people have even died. And my last memories are crap. Maybe even theirs.
I hope I get to see this certain someone that made me think again, Because I can't let myself going trough this life as if it doesnt matter. It does matter! People matter!
Some people are just meant to come into your life and completely change it. And we just stand still and watch.
I am taking controle.
Or.. try to anyways. I do make myself alot of empty promises...
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