Love is all around

That's how the song goes "Love is all around".
I have my doubts.
This is not really how my world, my reality works.
I know I am supposed to have the time of my life being a youth and all. Boyfriends, parties, carefree. Yet, it is not all it is bragged up to be, not for me anyways.
Yes, I go to parties, but boyfriends? Oh my word no! I don't really have the time, with work, family, friends, school and everything, plus the basic fact that I guess I am very conserved and won't really let anyone anywhere near me, "Step away".
I don't get feelings very often and somehow, even without knowing it I always seem to get myself dissapointed.
After everything I've been trough I have the need to refer to another song "Where is the Love?"