Christmas Without You

Lately I have had alot of arguments, with both my mum, and biological dad (which made me realize my danish is a bit rusty). I'm so tired, I don't understand how I am supposed to go on when everytime I seem to get my life on track it rails straight back off.
I've decided to go to my grandfather for christmas, then atleast I can see my nan's grave.
I miss her so much. Without her I feel confused. I don't know what to think, feel or react, She was my guide...
This will be a horrible christmas.
Anyways, Synnove's birthday today, I'm currently living at her place and in about 17 min her whole family is coming, strange for me. My birthday will be me and some friends going out.
I also wish my nan could be her when I turn 18, but I carry her ring around my neck so in a way she is there.
I really don't like christmas.

Christmas without you
White Christmas and I'm blue
Like fireworks with no fuse
Christmas without you
The fireplace keeps burning and my thoughts keep turning
The pages of memories of time spent with you
Old Christmas songs we knew and used to make love to
Make it hard to get used to
Christmas without you

Christmas without you
White Christmas and I'm blue
I love you I miss you
So sad but so true
Christmas without you
Like a mystery with no clues
Like fireworks with no fuse
Christmas without you