Peter Pan

Well I will not grow up! You cannot make me! I will banish you like Tinkerbell.

So yesterday (19. december) I turned the big 1-8. It was fun in one way, went out on the town, and good friends, but I had a little crisis.
Although I have been taking care of myself for quite some time the fact is that now you are supposed to be an adult. I went to the bank to put up a new account and I think I've found a place to move in, If only I could now find a way to earn enough money to survive.

So I had a crisis. I bough me and synnøve a dinosaur egg (that hatches in water), a tamagotchi and synnøve got a a Spiderman Bouncyball =D
I have always heard that I am very mature for my age, but now is the time when everyone expects you to be. It scares me half to death, now my life is my responsibility, and to quote Peter
Pan:
To live would be an awfully big adventure.
And.
To die would be an awfull big adventure.

Christmas Without You

Lately I have had alot of arguments, with both my mum, and biological dad (which made me realize my danish is a bit rusty). I'm so tired, I don't understand how I am supposed to go on when everytime I seem to get my life on track it rails straight back off.
I've decided to go to my grandfather for christmas, then atleast I can see my nan's grave.
I miss her so much. Without her I feel confused. I don't know what to think, feel or react, She was my guide...
This will be a horrible christmas.
Anyways, Synnove's birthday today, I'm currently living at her place and in about 17 min her whole family is coming, strange for me. My birthday will be me and some friends going out.
I also wish my nan could be her when I turn 18, but I carry her ring around my neck so in a way she is there.
I really don't like christmas.

Christmas without you
White Christmas and I'm blue
Like fireworks with no fuse
Christmas without you
The fireplace keeps burning and my thoughts keep turning
The pages of memories of time spent with you
Old Christmas songs we knew and used to make love to
Make it hard to get used to
Christmas without you

Christmas without you
White Christmas and I'm blue
I love you I miss you
So sad but so true
Christmas without you
Like a mystery with no clues
Like fireworks with no fuse
Christmas without you

I Am The Grinch

I hate christmas, I simply can't stand it.
Not only has every christmas been a reminder of how screwed up my family is, last year I did not live at home. This year seems to be going the same way, and since I obviosly don't seem to have a home at all after I turn 18 on the 19 th of december and my grandmother being dead and all. This should be the worst of them all.

I am the grinch.

Every Who down in Whoville liked Christmas a lot, but the Grinch, who lived just north of Whoville, did not. The Grinch hated Christmas - the whole Christmas season. Oh, please don't ask why, no one quite knows the reason. It could be, perhaps, that his shoes were too tight. Or maybe his head wasn't screwed on just right. But I think that the most likely reason of all
may have been that his heart was two sizes too small.

The Hausfraus.

So lately my ears were pleasantly suprised by some new music.
The people who know me also know that music is this HUGE-MASSIVE part of my life, it is a way for me to disconnect, relax and just enjoy one of the great things life has to offer. The lyrics, the beat, the tone, the voice. All part of this amazing symphony of sound that just make me want to smile while walking down the streets and just forget all about my worries, if even so only for a few minutes.
A couple of guys I would never say that I directly know, but at least know of trough one of my classes, has started their own band with 2 other dudes. I knew at least that Ørjan was quite good at the guitar, but this just blew me away.
I have not been this impressed with music since my first The Fray album.
The Hausfraus have, in my perspective, and unique sense of style that I can't find anything to compare directly to. I find their beat funky in a cool relaxing, but upbeat type of way, the vocals litterally gives me chilles down my spine. All in all, This is for me the type of music I mentioned earlier, the type that you can just sit down with and for once just, feel free.
Even try to sing along, although next to the vocals my voice seems like pure nonsense!
I find myself becoming a fan in the lunatic catagory, because basically, I just
love it.
Then again, What would I know about music? I am only a 17 year old youth...

They do have their own MySpace page and so on.... Check in out.
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=232431195
http://www11.nrk.no/urort/Artist/TheHausfraus/default.aspx


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http://www12.nrk.no/magasin/upunkt/urort/bilder/2/160581.jpg

Love is all around

That's how the song goes "Love is all around".
I have my doubts.
This is not really how my world, my reality works.
I know I am supposed to have the time of my life being a youth and all. Boyfriends, parties, carefree. Yet, it is not all it is bragged up to be, not for me anyways.
Yes, I go to parties, but boyfriends? Oh my word no! I don't really have the time, with work, family, friends, school and everything, plus the basic fact that I guess I am very conserved and won't really let anyone anywhere near me, "Step away".
I don't get feelings very often and somehow, even without knowing it I always seem to get myself dissapointed.
After everything I've been trough I have the need to refer to another song "Where is the Love?"