
So I was thinking today, about once again, who I am?
This question is imbeded in my mind every day and I can't seem to find a way to avoid it. Standing there in the deli-counter at Ultra (the shop I work at) I was looking all over the shop and seeing these custumors, cause that's what they are to me, customers.They come, take what they want, and leave. Makes me feel kind of used aswell =P
No but seriosly, to me they are customers, and to them, I am girl behind the counter with the fake smile and the uniform that lets them believe that I am apart of something. But there is more. I am not just the employe at work that day, I am a daughter, a sister, a niece, a grand-daughter, a student, a friend, a hobby-psykologist. I am everything I am capable of of. But does that define Danijela Lane?
Asking my mother who I am, would she say "she's a daughter"? Asking my sisters, would they say "She's a sister"? But if they said "She is my family, always smiling, smart and easy to talk to". Is that true? Am I Always really smiling? am I always smart? and would everybody say I'm easy to talk to? I dont think so...so who am I?
Am I who my family says I am, who the customers say I am, or who I say I am?
And if I don't know?
Yes, I have an identity problem, Hell, I even have an anxiety problem, I think too much.
"I Think, Therefore I Am"
I have more sides than one, and very few see it. That's the beauty of it asweel. With others I can be whoever I want to be.
I can be the Girl behind the counter with the fake smile and the feeling that I belong to something.
I can be student, the daughter, the sister, the friend.
I am more than 3D, and I choose which side you see.
Eventhough it may not be me.
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