I want to figure it out.

I really want to start my life over.
I want to live a more honest, even brutally honest life.
I want to live a more fearless life.
I want to be more open for success.
I want to explore my roots.
I want to be more accepting of happiness and positivity.
I want to regain my spontanity.
I want to take back controle of everything that makes me, me!

I think I need some sort of a 12-step program to get through it all.
I want to figure it out.